Never Thought Before

call me silly
call me sentimental girl
or call me what?!
i dont care..

i better write somethin like this than trying to tell somebody else, maybe fini, lola,  putra, and brian are to bored to listen on me..

sometimes i wanna CRY as LOUD as i can.
but my tears dry on their own (thnx for amy winehouse)
i have no reason to make my tears out.

i never thought that my life will be as lonely as like this..
yes, yesterday im so HIGH, it is very HIGH, no one can reach me.
till i felt so tired, than i fall down from the sky.
im on earth now, but it is not land, it is MUD!
god drop me down in the worse place!
but i choose this, i didnt regret it.


i know im not good.
it is hurts.
god, please let me confessed it, I MISS THEM!
i miss every boy that ever come in my life.
i miss them.
but i WILL NOT telling them or trying to make them back to my life..
come on, it will never happen.

i just feel lonely, alone, and hurts